I needed to rant. I needed to cry on my own. Heck, i don't even have any privacy in my own room.
And after that blog, i felt less bitter. I felt better. I started to smile without help again.
In between, there were 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th, and 29th January. I believed i talked to you in that period of time.
Also lately, i realized that i have left my old friends. The ones who were there with me from the very beginning.
Izyan, Afieqah, Atiqah, Khatijah. But mostly Izyan and Afieqah. I'm sorry guys. I'm sure you guys have found new friends too. Don't worry, you guys will still receive Invitation Cards to my wedding in the future.
No, i didn't have as much friends that were there for me, and i thank all of you who were. Sorry if i forgotten you, sorry you had to move and we had to be separated. Eze, i still remember you, you know. Thank you, SKWJ. :D
So lately, i have been hanging out with Dhania and Izyan. Start to get into short conversations with Afieqah and the rest again. Sorry if i've been shady. I just feel guilty for not being there for the others now, cause all of them were there for me then, and i still feel grateful. And afieqah, i can't stop this line from showing up in my head.
Your dad: 'Nak hantar dekat rumah siape? Ayah tau rumah Jai je la yang dekat Wangsa Maju'
I couldn't stop smiling that night. I felt honoured :D Friends Forever, Dear.
Well, last week, i started catching up with people. Sorry again, if i seemed Shady. but i do know that i talked to you. I'm sorry i didn't know all of your secrets, you never told me, and you did a great job at not telling. I had no clue, and reading it made me feel small, you don't know how strong you are. I hope you do now.
Well, i don't wanna start crying so i'm not gonna list out my unluckiness. And that might not make me sound as strong as you are, but i don't care cause
1)why should i, it's not a competition.
2)i know i'm not as strong as you are.
I don't know if there are many people like me, but i know Taylor Swift isn't.
I just like to let it be. With her, i was just gonna let go, heck, she was the one who called be a jealous loser. Not let go of our friendship, well, maybe.. but honestly, i think i told you about this,
I just need an ear to listen, someone to nod at what i'm saying even when that person wasn't listening. I don't need a mouth, ears can't talk. But if one day it happened that would be super cool! Haha.
No need to return what i gave to you, it was given 'Seikhlas Hati'. It was a thank you gift. A random gift which i know you wanted.
And i'm sorry that you have to go through what you are going through now. I wish you the best of luck, a happy life, and a stable one too. And also all the success in the world. But make sure to leave some for JB, cause im taking some of it from them. Sorry boys.
I feel even bitter now. Great.
And the fuck you wasn't for you, it was for someone else. It was an all-in-one blog.
Don't worry, i may say fuck you randomly or at certain times, but i'll never mean it in a horrible way when I'm saying it to you.
Hey, i already bought your birthday gift. Even if i'm not talking to you i'd still give it to you cause i know you'd like it.
And the rest you can figure out, i mean no harm.
I didn't have an ear to fill, so i turn to my favourite ear, mouth, and eyes. The Internet.
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