Sunday, August 9, 2009

I'm sorry, I'm speechless, I'm leaving you to read my will.

Fina, i am still crying as i am typing this one.

i'm sorry i can't make it. im sorry i disappointed you. im sorry i made you cry. 
im sorry for not being able to run away to your house. here are my reasons.

1) if anything happens my sisters would be blamed. i don't want that to happen.
2) if i go to your house, that's the first place my mom would look for me, and i can't think of any place else to go.
3) i'm not strong enough to go alone, if anything happens to me, i haven't met joe yet. [smile?]
4) if anything happens to me, i don't want my sister to have my room.

Im speechless, i don't know what to say to say sorry to you. i don't know how to make it all better right now. i know jonas would do it, but that would take a long time. and ohana means family, will not be enough.

I'm leaving you to read my will. Youre the only one i trust with my handphone. Yes, everything will be in my handphone. Please show it to the girls. I know i sound dramatic right now, but for no reason i have been thinking about death lately. Not because of the "speech" that ustazah gave us the other day. But i've been thinking about it since before. Long before. 

As an advantage for the will. I will let you know this,

All of my Jonases go to you.
All of my zac efrons go to you, quarter to suci.
My guitars and musical instruments go to Shamimi.
My iPods and music players go to Yeen.
My books and teddy bears go to Alya.

And to all of the ones listed above, if give all of you, my room, to trash.
Sorry if i seemed unfair. but please keep in mind that you guys have to share if anyone isn't satisfied, or you'll be cursed! [smile?] now i shall take my room keys, throw out all of my sister's things, lock the door, pack my stuffs and put them in boxes after labelled with all of your names, and jump out the window. Goodbye. I love you all. Sorry i didn't get to meet you angels.



Yes yes, u will still see me at school.

or will you?

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